Modern Psalm 12

I want to run
I want to shout
I want to hide
I want to give it all to You.
I want to turn the corner
to the holy place
where light streams
beyond the doubt of the second sunrise.
I want to know the power
the graceforce, blood soaked, tremor of the divine.
I want to reach beyond the flesh to the heart
to the very hands of the one who can pull me out
of the grey
to the gold of the bright harvest.
I want to dream
like I've never dreamed
and know You're there
I have this need and I will not let go
despite the pain and the fear of never coming out.
Because I'm drawn
I'm captured
by the One who brought me to this place.
Stuborn, I will stand until I see the face of my One God.